Music: TJ, Sex
The aftermath of
those moments when my life was left as mine again
Quick and nervous
shallow breaths
All of it - the
pain, the rage - mixed
in with complete disdain
I'd won, did I?
Beaten him. The
violator's lights were dim
But little did I
realize when the end had come so quickly then
I'd failed my
mission to control
emotion wasn't what I needed
It was over far too
quickly and I
needed more release
And never felt I'd
ever find just what
I had to have to HEAL!!!
I see myself with
complete disdain I can't accept the hurt and pain
That still resides
deep in my eyes it
shouldn't come as a surprise
I'm so ashamed of
all the weakness that
I couldn't help but show
No more sadness will
I feel will I
accept or ever know!
Bang, bang, bang...
the violation ended except for when the lights are out
Or when I close my
eyes I see the faces
clear as day my voice is gone I try to shout
And tell myself it's
just a dream it
isn't worth a fucking scream
But tell yourself
when you're that scared
- will YOU believe they aren't there?
It's not enough to
tell yourself that times have changed and things have gone
Your death has left
the cycle going -
what the fuck else could be done?
Tell me now - what
can I do? To sleep,
to dream - haunted by you?
I want to live but
not like this how
can I shake the shackles of my thoughts?
I see myself with
complete disdain I can't accept the hurt and pain
That still resides
deep in my eyes it
shouldn't come as a surprise
I'm so ashamed of
all the weakness that
I couldn't help but show
No more sadness will
I feel will I
accept or ever know!
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